It’s been ten years since I made the decision to become Christian as a junior in college. The Lord has been so faithful these past ten years – through many up’s and down’s, He has been gracious and has blessed me with so many things. I feel blessed to have endured and suffered hyperemesis twice because it has given me a greater appreciation for the cross which Jesus had to endure. The very physical and visceral suffering of Christ has been made all the more real because of my own experience with physical suffering. When Christ said, “I thirst”, I can imagine how utterly tired and dehydrated he must have been because I’ve experienced severe dehydration to the point of needing daily IV treatment. What I can’t imagine is having nails pierce the skin of my hands and feet. I also have caught a glimpse of how lonely the cross must have been and how betrayed Jesus must have felt that all of disciples fled when He needed them the most. HG is a most isolating and depressing disease and I have felt that deep sense of betrayal and abandonment from loved ones as well. The amazing thing about the cross is that Jesus knew how bad his physical, emotional, and spiritual suffering would be and yet He chose to endure the pain because it was the Lord’s will and because He knew his suffering had a higher purpose to bring salvation to all of humanity. To bring spiritual life to those who choose to believe in Christ. And in that sense, HG sufferers are called to suffer for a higher purpose as well. That without the pain of HG, the birth of a child would never happen. And this is the glory of suffering for others. This is the beauty of the cross.
I am a two-time HG survivor. Social worker by profession but for now a full-time baby buncher.
What inspires me? Many things, but first and foremost, it’s Jesus.
Last year, I underwent my second HG pregnancy – it was, without a doubt, the hardest thing life has thrown at me thus far. After surviving hyperemesis twice, I am grateful to be alive and to be gaining my health back. I want to start off this year by praising God for his faithfulness as He was the one who kept me and the baby safe through a very difficult pregnancy.
My key verse for this year is John 16:33. “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”
There is so much darkness in this world that it can be overwhelming to even breathe at times. But Jesus tells us that we can have peace in Him! My prayer for this year is that I may find peace in Jesus despite the troubled circumstances life often hands each one of us.
Last year, I was in much physical turmoil and emotional darkness due to HG. This year, I hope to cherish life’s blessings and embrace the beauty and bliss in the little, day-to-day things. In addition to being a mommy blog, this blog will be an eclectic collection of things that inspire me daily – faith, family, food, fashion, art, and whatever else sparks my soul.
Hope to inspire you along the way,